Hello friends...

It's Maya. I'm back online. I've finished writing my first book "From the Heart" and I'm currently working on "Pathways of My Life". I've been trying to write offline, but for some reason the words just arent flowing. I think I need to share with you as I'm writing, so I'm hoping you will hop on the path and walk with me for a while. I have so many things I want to tell you. I am bursing at the seams!!

It's so good to be back again.....walking with you...my friend.

Love and Light,
Always,
Maya xoxox

Moments of Awareness

"Perhaps a lifetime is the experience of all the moments of awareness we have"

"Have you ever experienced a lifetime in a perfect moment in time?"

Just sitting in my room....my sanctuary this morning, with my Jim. It's a beautiful day. The sun is shining. I can feel the breeze blowing gently in thru the patio doors. Jim is sitting on our love seat and I'm on the sofa......resting on the softest sheepskin a special friend gave me .

Jim just told me the most beautiful thing a moment ago. I caught him gazing at me with a little smile on his face. I asked him what he was thinking and he replied "I'm just looking at my favorite person in the world and experiencing a perfect moment in time." "I'm in my favorite place in the world....the sun is shining...the birds are singing....I physically feel good....and I'm with you."

Sometimes I think I don't deserve him. Sometimes I feel he thinks way too much of me and I hardly feel worthy....He says the most beautiful things to me. He is the most loving, devoted person I have ever known.

I'm looking at him now. He has fallen asleep on the loveseat. He's wearing his favorite grey terry bathrobe. I've never met a more content person in my life than my Jim. He is so at ease with himself...so accepting of himself. He is definately in a place I would like to be someday. Self acceptance is something I personally struggle with every day...

It's funny. I picked up my journal and pencil a few minutes ago having no idea what I would be sharing with you. But then the words just started to flow with the passing moments.....

I've been thinking about what the idea of 'lifetime' means to me today and I'm thinking that maybe it is the experience of all the moments of awareness we have. We do so many things in this life without being aware at all....its like flying on autopilot. But then there are the moments that we are consciously aware of...maybe those are the moments ...or rather the memories we take with us when we leave this life.

My awareness today is far greater than it was ten years ago. I feel like I lived in a state of numbness for so many years...completely unconscious and unaware of anything around me. I feel a sadness when I think of all the moments I may have missed during those years....Now I find myself noticing all the moments and what they are showing to me. I'm finally awake.

I've lived in this area (The Niagara Region, in Ontario), my whole life and find myself discovering so many new things about it. I almost feel like a tourist. LOL. I find myself wanting to be close to nature all the time now, whereas I used to lock myself away and stay indoors.....so much time wasted for so long..

I'm thinking that I'd like to go for a hike today. I'm off work and want to create a perfect adventure. Maybe Jim will come with me.... I know I should be cleaning the house and stuff, but I just can't seem to get to it. There are so many other things I want to do...and never enought time.

I know my latest journals have focused on my relationships, and I've realized that my energies are depleting... I need to focus on myself and my journey. I feel that I need to hop back onto my path and move forward. I'll continue to love and share myself with others, but I must continue to follow my path to discovery........The moments are ticking by and I don't want to miss a thing!

Maya